30 Days of Truths {Day 30}

This is the last day of the 30 days of truths!!! I really enjoyed doing them and it made me really think.

Thanks everyone for listening. :) It's sure been a rough month.

Day 30: WRITE A LETTER TO YOURSELF TELLING YOU ALL THE THINGS YOU LOVE ABOUT YOURSELF.

Dear Shelley:

This is one of those times when you really need to listen to "it's not you, it's HIM"

You are a very good person. He is the one being hurtful, not you.

You love others and treat them like they are very important people to you.

People say you are a good friend.

You have a great sense of humor and it's pretty cool that you can still act silly like a teen and not feel embarrassed or self conscious.

You need to remember that the whole time you have been with this man you have felt, left out, insecure, unloved, lied to and hurt.

This is not now he is doing this, he has always done this, you were just to kind to see it in him.

You feel peoples pain like it is your own and even if it hurts you will weather the storms with them.

People look up to you and are jealous of the things you have done with your life.

You have travelled the world and experienced things some people never will.

Sometimes you get so down on yourself because you feel like you have nothing to show for your life.

You do...

You have loads of people who love you near and far, and they will be your friends forever.

You know why?

Cause you are a good friend to them, and they know you love them.

Not everyone would "make" an ice cream cake for their friend's daughters birthday.

Not every dance teacher would stand side stage at every show and competition UNPAID to make sure every one of their students has someone to cheer them on backstage.

Not every friend would send Christmas and Birthday cards to Australia every year for a friend they travelled with in 2001.

Not your average girl would make the coolest cape ever and the prettiest sundress ever for their Bestest Neighbor Friends kids.

Most people give up their dog like they are not important. But you are heartbroken.

Most people wouldn't give up their free day to go through a friends wardrobe then shop to replace it!

Not everyone takes a hurt teen out for ice cream just to bitch about life.

Not everyone would suffer through two months of living with him, to be loyal to their job.

You do so much for everyone else.

Right now it is ok to let them take care of you.

You need it,

You look terrible.

You cry constantly.

You hate yourself right now cause he doesn't want to be with you.

Your devastated...

but it's gonna be ok.

I promise you.

Your not as alone as you tell yourself.

Love,

Me.

30 Days of Truths {Day 29}

Day 29: SOMETHING YOU HOPE TO CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF AND WHY.

I would like to have a better memory and be less dependant on everyone.
It's been a long time since I have been single for a long amount of time (which is which I plan on doing) and I am very much looking forward to being completely independent.
Memory - can't do much about ;)

Cheers,
Messy

Cheers,

Messy

30 Days of Truths {Days 26, 27 & 28}

Day 26: HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT GIVING UP ON LIFE? WHEN AND WHY?

Uh yes.

Right now.

I am completely over life and to be honest I just want it to be over.

Mostly because I have lost everything of importance to me because of one shitty human being.

 He is the most selfish person I have ever met, and he has admitted that his happiness is the only thing that's important to him.

 He thinks I'm stupid for wanting to be with him, because he has treated me so poorly in the last 4 months.

I have lost my dream home, I have to sell all my belongings, trying to make it in Ontario has caused financial ruin for me.

I think I'm going to have to give up Chuck Norris. {cries}

No more dream job,

no more perfect life.

No more happiness for me.

Pure heartbreak for another 2 months.

FML.

 

Day 27: WHAT IS THE BEST THING GOING FOR ME RIGHT NOW?

I have an amazing set of friends.

I don't know how I would have gotten through these last 4 months without them.

 

Day 28: WHAT IF YOU BECAME PREGNANT?

I would cry, run around like a chicken with my head cut off, have a major meltdown to my mom, then give it up for adoption and make sure it goes to a gay couple.

I have never wanted kids, and I still never want kids.

I love kids, but not full time.

Cheers,

Messy

9 days until my 30th birthday weekend extravaganza with my bestie!

Can't wait!

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30 Days of Truths {Day 25}

Day 25: THE REASON YOU THINK YOU ARE ALIVE TODAY.

I have no idea.

I have no idea why any of us are here.

Nor do I have any idea how long the human species will still be here.

Hmmm...

To be honest, this is never something I have thought about before.

I don't really care why I'm here.

I just am.

Cheers,

Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 24}

(Sorry forgot to post this yesterday - I was at dance competition all day and didn't schedule it! Ooops!)

Day 24: MAKE A PLAYLIST FOR SOMEONE AND EXPLAIN WHY YOU PICKED THE SONGS.

This is for Cassie, Sarrah & Jordyn

(these are my favorite songs to teach to!)

1. Without You ~ David Guetta ft. Usher
2. Levels ~ Avicii
3. Damaged ~ Danity Kane
4. Alors On Danse ~ Stromae
5. Respect ~ Melanie Amaro

6. J'adore Dior Advert 2011 ~ Heavy Cross
7. Wild Ones ~ Flo Rida ft. Sia
8. Crazy ~ Alexandra Stan
9. Go Crazy ~ Mia Martina ft. Adrian Sina
10. Collide ~ Leona Lewis ft. Avicii
11. Burning ~ Mia Martina

Love you Pretty Ladies!!!

Cheers,

Miss Shelley

(**these are my senior students who are also teachers at the dance studio. They do MANY MANY favors for me and are complete life savers!!**)

30 Days of Truths {Day 23}

Day 23: SOMETHING YOU WISH YOU HAD DONE IN YOUR LIFE.

I wish I had gone to England when I was dating my ex-boyfriend.

I wish I had gone and met his family and friends.

You know, gone to the pub, seen where he lives, his life.

He came to Victoria (Canada) a few times, but it was much more costly for me to go his way.

Cheers,

Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 22}

Day 22: SOMETHING YOU WISH YOU DIDN'T DO IN YOUR LIFE.

Ummm...

There are alot of things,

but...

I would say on the top would be that I wish I didn't move so far away from my family.

I lost two very valuable years in my nephews life, tonnes of family get togethers, birthdays, anniversaries, etc. etc.

It was a selfish move...

but I know my family understands that I just needed out for a bit.

Needed to be away from it all.

It's been good.

I'm ready to go back now.

:)

It's gonna be ok.

Cheers,

Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 21}

Day 21: YOUR BEST FRIEND GETS IN A CAR ACCIDENT AND YOU TWO HAD GOTTEN IN A FIGHT.

Ouch.

I don't like this one, but I also wanna say this doesn't matter.

Even if me and K were in a fight, it would be forgotten the second something like this happened.

I know that if there was a major tragedy or highlight in one of our lives, the other would be there so fast.

Isn't that why she's my bestie?

I think so.

(and also cause she's got better style)

Cheers,

Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 20}

Day 20: YOUR VIEWS ON DRUGS AND ALCOHOL

Whatever floats your boat.

To each there own.

6 of one, half a dozen of the other.

Meaning...

whatever dude.

Cheers,

Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 19}

Day 19: WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT RELIGION AND POLITICS?

RELIGION = I think it's a little weird.(Sorry). This is mostly because I have never had good experiences with it. Some people need a higher power to believe in so they have someone to blame stuff on. Good or Bad. "Oh, God made me get this wonderful fabulous job because he loves me." Ummm...no. Your new boss loved you so he hired you. I think the singing, fainting, dancing part of church is very entertaining. LOL I don't judge people for being religious or believing in God. It's just not my thing.

POLITICS = I used to want to get really into politics so I could vote and make a difference. But once I did I realized two things.

a) My measly little one vote really won't sway who's gonna win.

b) no matter who you pick, they will never be good enough and never do what they say they are going to do.

So, now, I just ignore politics.

Terrible I know.

Cheers,

Messy

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30 Days of Truths {Day 18}

Day 18: YOUR VIEWS ON GAY MARRIAGE

Well,

why do straight people have the choice to choose who they want to marry, but gay people don't?

Who died and made the government/bible boss and said they could make people's

life decisions for them?

I don't understand what is WRONG with gay people getting hitched?

Isn't love, love? All the same?

As you can tell...I am 100% for gay marriage.

I think we should all be able to share  our lives with someone we want to.

No matter if they are male, female or alien.

We all deserve to be happy and be loved.

Cheers,

Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 17}

Day 17: A BOOK YOU HAVE READ THAT HAS CHANGED YOUR VIEW ON SOMETHING.

Many years ago I read this book called The Natashas, By Victor Malarek.

It's about the global problem of human trafficing.

I never realised how involved Canada is and how much we support it.

I remember there being a "rub and tug" down the street from my first house in Calgary.

I would glare, scoff and be disgusted everytime I walked by it.

I wouldn't do that now.

How do we stop this?

Why are men  using this survice?

Why is it so in demand?

It's scary, gross and makes me dislike our country a little.

It needs to stop.

NOW.

Check out this blog for more info.

Investigate this issue, it's extremely unfortunate that the world doesn't know more about it and isn't doing more to stop it.

Cheers,

Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 15}

DAY 15: Something/someone you couldn’t live without, ’cause you’ve tried living without it.

Well, I would say Kassie again because I can't live with out her. But since I used her for a different day in this truths game I will pick something I can't live without.

Chapstick.

Yup. Doesn't matter if it's a good one or a crap one.

I always need chapstick.

Summer, winter, spring and fall.

I need chapstick.

:)

True Story.

Cheers,

Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 14}

Day 14:  A HERO THAT HAS LET YOU DOWN.

This is a hard one because I don't think I have a hero.

Is that weird?!?
I know I should say a grandparent or something...but I just don't know.
Hero.
Who's your hero?

Sorry folks. I don't know what to say here.

 

Cheers,

Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 13}

Dear Gabrielle:

Ever since 2001 and driving around Australia with my Irish girls, I have been a huge fan. Everytime I need to get over a boy I crack open your CD and listen to you in the car.I belt out the lyrics to every song since I know them all through and through. You words are bang on, you know exactly how I feel and you always makes me feel better.

Thanks for being one of my besties.
You've always helped immensely!!!

Thanks Pretty Lady! You mean the world tome.

I am sure I will be bringing out your CD again soon!!! :)

Cheers,

Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 12}

Day 12: SOMETHING YOU NEVER GET COMPLIMENTS ON.

My weight/figure. I get comments. Some good, some bad. But never a compliment. It's usually some sort of comment like "Well, you don't even have to watch your weight" or "You don't have to worry about shopping EVERYTHING looks good on size 0".
This is not true.
I have very long legs and arms and in short sleeve things I look lenky. Plus, sometimes I look boney and showing cleavage looks gross. Being skinny isn't all it's cracked up to be. I spend most my life trying to gain weight so I look okay. It's just as hard as losing weight and soooooo frusterating. My Doctor is just as concerned about me being underweight as they would be about someone who is overweight. I know lots of you are rolling your eyes right now and that's fine. I'm just sayin' it like it is.

Cheers,
Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 11}

Day 11: SOMETHING PEOPLE SEEM TO COMPLIMENT YOU THE MOST ON.

I would have to say my sense of humor. I believe I am quite witty. People seem to laugh in my presence. Hahaha...

If you don't believe me, check out my facebook updates :)

Cheers,

Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 10}

Day 10: SOMEONE YOU NEED TO LET GO AND GET OUT OF YOUR LIFE.

***please see day 8 :)))) LOL LOL LOL

Cheers,
Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 9}

Day 9: SOMEONE YOU DIDN'T WANT TO LET GO, BUT YOU JUST DRIFTED.

I would have to say this is two people. I talk to one more over facebook, but the other I haven't heard or seen in years.

I grew up in an awesome neighborhood and had tonnes of friends I played with all summer outside. I will never forget the day the new girl moved into the cal-de-sac and I was soooooooo excited!!! I walked straight up to her and asked "Do you wanna be my friend?" she said yes and the rest is history. (Don't you wish it was that easy as an adult to find friends?) We were besties until high school when we got boyfriends and fought over a boy. *sigh* so dumb. LOL We talk every once and a while through facebook and she has grown up to be a beautiful woman who is happy and healthy. I'm very happy for her.

The other is my friend my Grandma would call "Joined at the Hip". We literally were joined at the hip all through high school. She lived a couple houses down and we would spend our summers working at the souvenir warehouse and walking to the grocery store for chips. She started dating this boy in high school that had a different group of friends and pulled a typical teenager and fell off the face of the earth. LOL They have been together for years and are now very happily married. What a great couple!!!

I miss both the ladies and think about them all the time. I wish I had Joined at the Hip on Facebook so we could catch up once in a while. No such luck.

Cheers,
Messy

30 Days of Truths {Day 7}

Day 7: SOMEONE WHO HAS MADE YOUR LIFE WORTH LIVING.

There is only one person in this whole entire world that ACTUALLY knows me. She has seen me at my worst, best, craziest, wildest, happiest and saddest. She is someone that I will always forgive, love, care about and have in my life. We can not talk for months and it is still exactly the same. I have made some extremely poor decisions in my life, and she always supports me and makes me feel like everything will be ok. There's no judgement, I've never been scared to tell her anything, and I tell her EVERYTHING. I really really really would not be where I am today if it wasn't for her help and love. She means everything to me. She will always be "the One" for me, and no one will ever compare. There are very few people in this world the genuinely love and care about me unconditionally and she is at the top of the list.

Thank you Kassie for being my friend. I couldn't survive without you. :) I love you.
Only exactly 30 days until I see you love.....can't wait!!!!!!

Cheers,
Messy